Tics

So I've been in a partial hospital program at Salem Hospital. Today I did a half day at school. I almost got through the day, then someone threw fruit at me and I flipped shit.
I've also been having a lot of tics. So far it's been:
-head jerking back
-nodding
-leg twitch
-legs kicking
-hands shaking
-vocal noises
-head shaking
-arm muscle tension
-shoulders shaking
-blinking

I think it might be my meds or maybe an increase in anxiety, or maybe both? I need to discuss it with my meds doctor.

I'm Baaaaaaaaack!

I'm back from the hospital! I was at Bournewood this time. It was definitely MUCH better than Hampstead. I drove my dads car today and everything is chill now. I'm going to a day program starting tomorrow.

Once Again

Guess who's sitting in the ER! Yup, once again. This time I'm not vomiting blood at least. I'm here for suicide plans and extensive cutting. I'm probably going back to the mental hospital so yeah...

Secrets.

I think the best part about this blog is that no one knows about it. Not my friends, not my family, no one. So that means I can say anything I want. No consequences, no worries. Nothing given away. Sense no one will see this in time, Wednesday. Wednesday April 17, 2013. The last day. MY last day. I have it planned and ready. So long and goodnight <3

As Always

I just thought I'd do a quick post since its been a while. Nothing much is new. I'm still very much in love and doing fine. The new season of Doctor Who stared a few days ago, but I didn't watch it yet cause I need to finish the other season first. (Spoilers!)

The End

As most of you have probably heard by now, MCR has broken up. The news had spread across Facebook, Tumblr, and Twitter. There was a paragraph announcing the breakup on the My Chemical Romance website, and Gerard recently tweeted a long goodbye message. The loss of MCR has caused 33 suicides already. Now more than ever we need to listen to their message, stay alive, love yourself, and love the world. Stay strong everyone. The MCRmy will carry on.

Crazy Love

So I didn't have time to explain what happened at the mental hospital in my last entry, so I'll explain what happened now. Well first off I was roommates with Laura and Taylor. Then Laura got discharged. Then this girl who use to be my friend (and now hates me for no reason) showed up, and then Taylor got discharged. An then there was the "relationship square". Felicia was going out with Joe, and then she started going out with me at the same time. Then Felicia told me Raleigh liked me and I started going out with Raleigh while I was still going out with Felicia. Then Joe got jealous and made Felicia choose between me and him, and she chose him cause I had Raleigh. Then Felicia broke up with Joe cause she didn't like him anymore. Me and Raleigh are still together and he is so amazing. And to think we met in a mental hospital...

Mental (?!)

Hey everyone! I just got back from the mental hospital the other day. I was there for a week and a lot happened! Once I got back I had to catch up on all the latest bandom/fandom news. Mikey and Sarah got matching nose rings. I think it looks good on Mikey, but I still think Sarah is kind of a snobby person. Well, I guess that's it for now!

An Interesting Day

So right now I'm in the hospital. I overdosed on Tylenol (yes, on purpose) and now I'm here. I kept throwing up this morning, then when I got to school Julia came with me to guidance. I told Julia and then she told the guidance councillors for me. They asked my questions like how many, what kind, ect. Then the nurse came in and took vitals. Then then they called my parents and sent me to the hospital in an ambulance. Now I've been here for about 6-7 hours and I'm still hooked up to the IV. Apparently I have I wait for the mental health doctors to come in and talk to me, then I can with go or whatever they decide based on what they think.
I think after all this I realised that my friends care, Julia was crying, and Baze and Meredith and Roop were all worried. Tomorrow will be interesting being swarmed with questions, like I haven't had enough already today. Well soon I'll be out and I'll probably be in school tomorrow.

Hello Sweetie

OnDemand just put up the first half of season seven of Doctor Who! Guess who won't be leaving the couch for the rest of the week...
Also I'm doing a project in my Web Design class where we make our own TV network for our favorite shows, and we get to make a video add for it. I spent like two hours getting clips for it. I'm going to have it say 'the good' then show happy clips, then say 'the bad' and show sad clips, and then say 'and the adventure' and show really cool epic clips and get all intense and then cut to Sherlock falling and then right after you hear John yell "SHERLOCK!" It cuts to a picture that says TDK Network. I named it TDK Network for The Dove Keeper, which I still need to finish.

All Day, Every Day

I am almost done with the last episode of season 4 of Torchwood. I think it's been about 24 hours, more or less. I finished both seasons of Sherlock in 48 hours, when I'm into a show I just keep watching and don't stop. Typical fangirl stuff I suppose, I know my fellow Tumblr users would understand.

Jack is Back

Yesterday I discovered that OnDemand has season 4 of Torchwood! Netflix only had seasons 1-3 so now I can keep watching, yay! Right now I'm almost done with episode 4.

P.s. Here's a picture of John Barrowman (Captain Jack Harkness) and David Tennant (The Tenth Doctor) kissing! I totally ship them by the way.

It's a Tumblr Thing

Sometimes when I'm on Tumblr I find something that is 100% necessary to fangirl over, but usually my family is right there. So then I end up making this really weird face and try not to scream. When I'm home alone, I probably scream from feels at least 5 times an hour.

Gerard Way's Boa Collection

Me and my friend Denny started a new Facebook page called Gerard Way's Boa Collection. We were both previously on For All Of Us Who Have Fallen In Love With My Chemical Romance. I'm ~VenomStars and Denny is ~KilljoyWithAGun. Go like!

Welcome Back to 221B

As all Sherlockians know, Sherlock is filming season 3! I'm super excited to see what happens, especially to John. I really hope him and Sherlock have some sort of emotional romantic reuniting. Also, I'll be looking out for anything that a Tumbr user suggested. Everyone seemed to have some amazing ideas for season 3. I just hope there's plenty of Johnlock, and more of Sherlock's weird shit that freaks John out of course! We need more hilarious 'things that only happen at 221B' moments. Those are the best.

Goodbye, Doctor

I recently finished Doctor Who (I'm finished all my shows and it's super depressing). I'm kind of glad that there wasn't some big huge two part dramatic ending this time, I feel like they can get a bit boring at times. I mean, it's exciting and all, but just plain fighting off enemies then faking a plan gets a little dull after a while. I tend to like the more emotional stuff, but that's just me.
I think the hardest part of 6 was realising how river must have felt the first time the Doctor met her, because she must have been so scared he didn't know her. River is probably one of my favorite characters.

The World is a Graveyard

So the other day I finished Torchwood, it was (of corse) super depressing. I'm not going to give anything away, but I just felt like with the ending it almost closed of Torchwood forever. I feel like if it was just Torchwood and there wasn't any Doctor Who where we already knew Jack's future then it would leave more hope for future episodes. Also with the ending state of the characters I feel like it wouldn't be the same if they continued it. No matter what I will always ship Jack and Ianto though.

Blog Of Your Average Fangirl

So of you don't already know, I'm Emily. 15 years old (16 soon), Sophomore in High School, Tumblr fangirl, ect. I love Doctor Who, Torchwood, and Sherlock. I'm also starting Supernatural now so soon I will be part of Superwholock xD Some of my OTPs are Frerard, Jack and Ianto, Johnlock, Jalex, and Phan. I will ship literally anything, ever if I'm not part of that fandom. So that's me I guess, I know I'm pretty weird. But I guess that's just a human thing though, right?

P.S. Sometimes when I fangirl, I sound sort of like the TARDIS